sorry...

sorry theres been so many posts today but i needed to get it owt my system while it was in my head n while i had a laptop (had to rob my mates cause i dont have one).

its been proper strange to look threw my old work....havnt done it for a while and i havnt even looked at some of it since it was originaly assessed at college!! its a strange feelin cause...well i dont no why. its jus strnage. some of it i jus want to get rid of but i no its somethin i could end up regrettin but i gess i'll never no. i suppose its sort of like destroyin a part of yourself cuase i no its somethin i put my hart n sole into. but what happens if yuo make so much work that it takes up the hole of yuo n yuo rely on canvasses or photos to peace yuorself together? i dont no if i'm explainin it right or if anyone gets that. but i mean like what if yuo had to rely on yuor work completly to show who yuo are n nothin else. i love doin my wokr but i like to think that theres still more to me than jus my wokr. what if someones wokr is all a lie? the thought of this scares me n i'm not sure why. it might jus be because i rekon yuo have to be dead honest about stuff when it comes to yuor wokr but i dont no if that matters to anyone else. dont even no if its important but i spose if somthins important to an individual then thats all waht matters. people can be quiet strange when it comes to shit like that though or some might not have even questioned it. to be fair i've jus completely rambled n dont even no what there ment to be questionin....

its 5 in the mornin but i've desided to go for a walk round city center. sleep isnt an option at the moment n although i've got ideas for me work, its hard doin it at the minit so i think walkin might be the best option. either that or i'll jus brush me teeth hopin for some sort of revelation...